Why does being a second generation has to be such a headache... the pressure of legacy is sometimes too difficult to handle. Especially at times when in most of the cases the second generations fail to live up to the expectations and match the huge shadow of their antecedents. Though for the world, apparently, being a second genration or being one of the subsequent generations is such a lofty idea, most of the time there is this prejudice that everything comes easily, well orginized on a platter for those like us who belong to that particular group, but, only we know how difficult it becomes to do justice to that platter and how impossible it becomes to please the world (which of course isn't very receptive of new and is always reluctant to get the old overshadowed). So, I see in front of me an immensely difficult time in matching up the expectations and getting out of the shadow to create my own niche, but I'm determined and god willing I someday will. It might be difficult but it's not impossible. and as R H Schuller says... I'M-POSSIBLE :)
as a kaleidoscope reflects back the beautiful patterns of all that has gone into making of it, so does life... reflecting back all the emotions, the efforts, the work that has been put into it...this blog is about a bit of this and a bit of that and all the little stuffs that life is made of !
Friday, July 23, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
changed picture!
now it's a changed picture, coz I'm working on a changed ME...
but, it seems so damn difficult, the ME doesn't change easily, and I hate her for that, she keeps clinging to her old good self, while I want her to be really really mean and bad!
so, I got a gothic type of picture clicked, so that she would start feeling those horns and loose those faint rims (of course I don't claim her to be that saint to have a halo... but I do sometimes see those secretive faint rims around her trying to reach the perfection of halos)
but even this gothica type of pic isn't helping her....
oh...if I only could teach her.... THE ART OF BEING BAD !!!
and why do I need to be bad... oh I ve got hundreds and thousands of reasons....
- I want to be bad so that I would able to shout at ppl
- I want to be bad so that I can occasionally punch them too
- I want to be bad so that I can stop caring about this entire world
- I want to be bad so that I wouldnot miss those ppl who don't miss me :(
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but, it seems so damn difficult, the ME doesn't change easily, and I hate her for that, she keeps clinging to her old good self, while I want her to be really really mean and bad!
so, I got a gothic type of picture clicked, so that she would start feeling those horns and loose those faint rims (of course I don't claim her to be that saint to have a halo... but I do sometimes see those secretive faint rims around her trying to reach the perfection of halos)
but even this gothica type of pic isn't helping her....
oh...if I only could teach her.... THE ART OF BEING BAD !!!
and why do I need to be bad... oh I ve got hundreds and thousands of reasons....
- I want to be bad so that I would able to shout at ppl
- I want to be bad so that I can occasionally punch them too
- I want to be bad so that I can stop caring about this entire world
- I want to be bad so that I wouldnot miss those ppl who don't miss me :(
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Tuesday, June 29, 2010
On A Woman's Mind....
Has there been a tougher question than this one ? Especially for the the so called stronger gender? Very often I see this question popping out from men's mouth accompanied by all possible form of expressions that is known to to the man kind.
A frustrated "what do women want?", an awed "what women want?" , a loved "what women want?", a bewildered "what women want?" and sometimes a very genuine "what do women want?"
Too difficult a question, huh?
In fact, I too never had thought of it, till today when I asked my inner self, "what do I want?"
I had a doubt when I read this question for the first time, as to, will I have an answer, but surprisingly when I placed the question to myself, I was quite quick. Though, not very confident initially, but, when I analyzed my answer it came out to be so very true, at least for me!
So, what women want?
According to me, Love and Loyalty would sum up the entire answer.
Now, I know, at first look people would hardly agree to me, because apparently the needs may vary according to age, society, relationship and individual nature. Obviously you can't expect a thirteen old, a thirty year old and a sixty year old to have similar things on mind, or , a daughter, a wife or a mother to have similar expectations. But, that is what the beauty of these two words, love and loyalty is, that when seen in a broader sense these two things would be able to sum up everything. Well, I'm not counting materialistic things over here, for the simple reason that they are secondary, and when the primary needs are handled well secondaries either just follow them or become insignificant in their own ways.
Coming back to Love and Loyalty, how would these two words represent an entire array of needs and desires a woman's mind possesses, despite the differences of age, society and individuality?
Well, first lets see it relationship wise, love is all what a daughter, a sister,a friend, a lover, a wife and a mother a wants from her respective relations. Love in itself is such a vast emotion that it includes everything, be it understanding, care,respect, sympathy, friendship,or any other positive emotion, love can definitely act as a mother of all other positive emotions. So, the other person ,irrespective of whatever role he/she is playing in a woman's life, when loves a woman, he or she will obviously try his/her best to understand her, will have respect for her, will look after her needs and care for her in the best possible way. And the loyalty would make the person have faith in her and stand by her side through thick and thin, for better and for worse. These two things will give her everything, the love she can't do without, the security she needs, the freedom she desires for, and at the same time the rock strong support she silently wishes for. What else would a woman, or, as a matter of fact, any other living being on the earth would want?
Interestingly, these are the two things a woman wants from her own self too. A little bit of love for everything that her wonderful self is, and loyalty towards her own dreams that she carries in those starry eyes, in her soft heart, on that strong mind and within that accomplished soul.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
moments & memories
it's a fond feeling to be woken up by the dreams of a place from past where you would like to be at, of people you would love to be with,and of a person you would like to be as....
moments leave ....memories linger...
moments leave ....memories linger...
Monday, June 7, 2010
just a thought
As I feel lost and defeated today, I'm sure that the feeling won't remain this way forever.
Some day, somewhere, at some point of time, I'll close my eyes, smile, and say to myself- it was all worth :)
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